I've had several of the former lately and people.... I'm just waiting for someone to prove me wrong about humanity. I know, you're thinkin', "Desert Girl, look at the cup as half full..." Phuck that. If you have paid 60KD for a cheap bottle of tequila, you are fer sure thinking, "OMG. It's half empty! I need to slow down."
Butterfly, my dear and trusted advisor on spiritual and soul-healing matters says, "Ask for what you want. Don't tell The Universe the negatives that you don't want." So true, girlfraynd, so true. So here is what I want:
- Good health. [Including, but not limited to: Boobs that will never sag (big concern). Maintaining the current state of my butt.]
- I want my mom to live as long as I do (that's a wish). If I never have a family of my own, at least I have had the most amazing mentor/friend/companion that I could ever have asked for.
- A man who can stick to his promises. Intelligent. Make me laugh. Intuitive to know what I want; often to the point of pre-empting my verbalization of it. Care sincerely about me/my well-being. (And then the superficial stuff like tall, asmar, dark eyes, good looking, financially stable/job, an animal in the bedroom...). But seriously, let him stick to his promises. Please. For the Love of God, please make him stick to his promises.
- Friends who value me as much as I value them. Who reciprocate - in friendship and in other ways. Keep promises. Say what they mean and mean what they say. Respond to invitations.
I need to stop getting pissed off and (unfortunately) just break ties. If you let me down, I'm not going to stick around. I'm not going to reward bad behavior. You don't get my time. You don't get my help. You don't get my compassion. Life is too short and sometimes it is damn hard to replenish positive energy.
And speaking of positive energy, shout out to my dear friend, Special K. I appreciate your pep talks and trying to talk me out of dark moods when others have let me down. We're going to rock Dubai and I am so very very grateful. I wish Mrs. Special K was here to join us. I'm sure we'll be calling you, girl.
My mommy is coming to Kuwait soon- in the next few weeks. As she says, this will probably be her last trip to Kuwait so I'm hoping she has a fantabulous time. She picks up my spirits and being with her will be like a holiday for me.
Then, it is off to the GSA conference in San Antonio in May with Stella, her daughters and cousin, my 2 sisters, my friend who lives in SA.... endless margaritas on the River Walk. Sigh...
I can get through until then without koshing anyone, right?