Friday, January 20, 2012

Valentine's Day is coming again

14 years since  you died and nothing has changed.  I'm still doing the same old thing and you're gone and I miss you. You're still on my mind even when I'm surrounded by people. I always see you in the half-light in-between or out of the corner of my eye. I hate that I found out on Valentine's day.  It  changed everything.  Maybe I'm extra needy on that day and people don't get it.  And sometimes I just want to be alone with my thoughts of you so I can feel a little closer and know that you're still here (I find signs every day)  I still pick up the phone to call you - then I remember.



6 comments:

Expat and the City said...

I think he is looking down from Heaven while he waits for you with dozens of pink roses. xoxo

Desert Girl said...

That was so sweet - and I think so too. :)

The other day, I was in a flower shop and they had some (I don't know their name) flowers that he gave me with pink roses when we first met. I've never seen those flowers in Kuwait before - I didn't think they brought them here - and I got a sign. :)

SV said...

i'm sorry for ur loss ! But i truly believe that the ones we love (and are gone) are somehow always around us... and its comforting to feel their love around u sometimes :-)

Desert Girl said...

SV - I believe the same. I always feel him around. Had a psychic friend come to my house one time. He got very quiet and said, "Who's the guy?" Me: 'What guy?' Him: "The guy who died and is always around you."

Linda said...

Our loved ones are always with us. The night my Dad died I slept in his bed and before I was about to turn off the bedside lamp, I asked him for a sign that he was alright and the light blew in the lamp. The pink roses are a sign from him. Always believe he is with you and you will never be apart :0)

DJ said...

Sorry for your loss. I hope you get to enjoy life to its fullest.

That's how life is; sometimes you don't realize how special someone is until you lose them for good.