I went through a period in life here in Kuwait where I was on anti-depressants. I had a series of traumatic events happen that were life-altering and I needed to regulate my emotions. I shouldn't have stayed on the meds as long as I did, but at that time, they really helped. I was able to function for a time without feeling at all. I could have been the poster child for a similar-to-Botox-induced-face; all the emotions were the same; one face for all. Nothing affected me, good or bad.
Sometimes living in Kuwait, I feel like life gets to be so routine with no real highs and no real lows. I don't laugh as much as I do with family in Virginia, but at the same time, I don't have periods where I feel as low - or even as lonely. Here, life is a continuity of events rather than peaks and valleys. I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Sure, melancholy sets in and I have some times that are better than others, but overall, we're talking about a flat surface rather than mountains and valleys.
Right now, I'm on a plateau. The winter was great and I'm just waiting for summer activities to set in. Meanwhile, Spring is my favorite time of the year. Spring is all about re-birth and renewal. I'm there. I'm also doing a little Spring cleaning; evaluating what I should keep and what I shouldn't. It is all very fassssssssssscinating and I'm up for the challenge.