My family took pictures on the beach and I couldn't open my eyes. I looked link an anglo-Chinese woman. They have been very sensitive to light lately and I wanted to go back to the doctor to have my peepers checked.
I went to a highly-recommended opthamologist here in Virginia yesterday who told me that I can never wear contact lenses again - or risk blindness. Apparently, the viral infection diagnosed in Kuwait was karatitis brought on my lense irritation. I'm back to glasses and I hate it. My eyes are back to being damaged again (after wearing contacts for the past few weeks), so I have to wait a few months before they can even consider me for lasic (oh gee - another trip to the States! Wouldn't that be awful? hmmmm)
The doc actually mentioned the "B" word (combo distance and reading glasses). oooooh noooooo, I'm not THAT old and I'm not even going to discuss it. (Not going to mention that dirty word on my blog neither.) Told her to talk to the hand. Bring on the reading glasses, but those other kind - aint gonna happen. Not now. Not later. Nooooooo. Next, I'll be tying my hair up in a bun and going grey (again, never going to happen). Not this girl.
Ok, so I know that I'm a walking pity-party. My sister is a graceful creature who immediately looks at any situation from a unique and interesting perspective, "So, you're telling me that God saved you from becoming blind today...." She then went on to tell me again and again how good I look in glasses (good call on the pair, The Romanian!) She has been making me feel much better and in her generous way has offered to help. "It's my thing..." and continues making dinner for the house full of neighborhood boys she enjoys being surrogate mom to. Yup, I'm blessed in many many ways and I know that. Mashallah.
I know I'm looking at it the wrong way and wallowing perhaps in self-pity, but my whole life people have commented on how pretty my (boobs) eyes are and now I feel like I'm carrying an imperfection. It is a very stupid perception and I've got to get over myself. I hope they can do the lasic. It would be nice to open my eyes in the morning and see what's around me! That would be a new experience. 'Look! There's the clock! There's my big bottle of Flaxseed and Omega vitamins....'