Friday, September 07, 2018

I can't just be your friend


If you really love someone, you don't leave.



I can’t just be your friend
As much as I miss being your friend,
and your love and the person you spent your time with.
The person you could share your problems with.
The person who knew you best;  and now not much at all.

I can’t just be your friend
Because part of me now hates you
For the betrayal I felt (and still feel) when you left
As if I was nothing
As if we meant nothing.
I can’t be a hypocrite and pretend.

I can’t just be your friend
Even though I wish you the best
And watch your life evolving
Knowing that I helped you achieve your goals
And now you are soaring in a different direction without me.

I can’t just be your friend
As we are in a pretend friendship.
Not really being friends like we used to be.
We are now in a mode of suspended animation.
Stating pleasantries and smiling.

I can’t just be your friend.
As our families are our friends separately.
Because we are now just acquaintances.

I can’t just be your friend.
Because you died the day you left me.
The you I knew walked out the door and never returned.
I don’t know this person to be friends with him.
My friend is gone and nothing and no one can bring him back.
The man I knew never would have stopped being my friend.

2 comments:

Abdullah said...

I haven't checked this blog for years.... aaaaand this poem almost made me cry.

Desert Girl said...

Thanks, Abdullah. :)