I can't just be your friend

If you really love someone, you don't leave.

I can’t just be your friend

As much as I miss being your friend,

and your love and the person you spent your time with.

The person you could share your problems with.

The person who knew you best;  and now not much at all.

I can’t just be your friend

Because part of me now hates you

For the betrayal I felt (and still feel) when you left

As if I was nothing

As if we meant nothing.

I can’t be a hypocrite and pretend.

I can’t just be your friend

Even though I wish you the best

And watch your life evolving

Knowing that I helped you achieve your goals

And now you are soaring in a different direction without me.

I can’t just be your friend

As we are in a pretend friendship.

Not really being friends like we used to be.

We are now in a mode of suspended animation.

Stating pleasantries and smiling.

I can’t just be your friend.

As our families are our friends separately.

Because we are now just acquaintances.

I can’t just be your friend.

Because you died the day you left me.

The you I knew walked out the door and never returned.

I don’t know this person to be friends with him.

My friend is gone and nothing and no one can bring him back.

The man I knew never would have stopped being my friend.