I haven't been in the writing mood lately and for those of you who know me - it is kindof like getting me to stop talking; virtually impossible (especially after sushi AND coffee - Oh.... my.... God!)
My American boss/colleague/boss (direct line manager) wrote me the nicest reference letter today that I have ever received. I almost cried, but that would have freaked him out; he's not an emotional guy and he is a man of very few words, but who I admire and have learned from greatly. I hope that he won't soon be in the same boat I'm in; but again, if he does get terminated, it will also be a blessing for him ('specially cause they'll owe him a SHITLOAD of money). I am going to write him an appreciation letter before I go. Then, I am going to plaster his office with smileys because he hates them... tee hee.
I read the tarot cards for myself last night. They never come out right if you do it for yourself. This is the 2nd time I have read them for myself (once at the end of July) and both have come up with the Tower card. Scares me. I hope it is only about this job and not something else unexpected and life-altering in not-a-good-way.
Oh, the other thing the tarot spread said was for me to know the power of gratitude. I am very grateful for all the invisible angels out there who have sent me kind words of comfort. This blog has been such an amazing blessing and when I have really needed support, you people have been there. You may not know how a few words have affected me, but they have and I hope that your kindesses are all returned to you.
I have really really really been blessed throughout my life (word to The Big Man) and it is kindof like I am almost waiting for something to happen; like maybe I don't deserve all these blessings I have had. When my sister had cancer, I wished I could have taken her place (especially as she was a new mom and wife); but then as it turned out, it was her own life-altering experience that changed her so much and helped so many other people in so many ways. You never know how something awful will change you and in some way, change the world around you.
"Okay okay enough with the BS - what the hell is happening in your situation, Desert Girl..." .... you may ask.
I have had several job offers here. I have had zero job offers there, although my x-brother-in-law (sister's x) who is a recruiter has volunteered to help me. I secretly think that he is doing it just to find out for sure if his belief that I really work for the CIA will be confirmed and that somehow my resume is going to tell him that - as IF. Like, ok, if I was a spy, do you think I would put it on my frick-in resume? That would be dumb. I'm just sayin...
What I have decided to do is yoga... meditate (I wrote type-o ,"medicate" which is true also) on it. I'm not making any rush decisions. I am getting quotes to put my stuff into storage if it comes to that and leave my stuff there until such time as I'm ready to have it shipped. (God, I LOVE Global Freight Systems! Y'alls rock.) OOOOOOOOOO saaaaaaaaa.
I pray every night to God that He gives me signs. If He wants me to stay, He will make it easy for me. If He wants me to go, He will make it easy for me. Everything is in God's plan. It will all work out and either way, I vow to be happy.
Now to me being evil/mischievious: Our HR guy is very nice and I enjoy flirting with him; especially because he 1) throws it back at me, and B) blushes a LOT. I like him as a person, but notsomuch in an HR capacity. There just isn't enough humanity in the H to the R part (I think that he knows he is doing things that are not righteous, but he does them anyway. Eventually, you pay a price for that.) Anyoooooo, I have taken to messing with him. I think he thinks I'm about to go postal, so I am making a lot of sudden moves around him so he jumps. I am also sexually harassing all the male managers just for shits and giggles. They can't fire me twice, right? The next thing I think I'm going to do is buy a realistic looking machine gun and leave it somewhere in my office within eyesight. (I know - that's just wrong....) They all think I'm a crazy, angry white woman. Slapperella also bought me a stamp (everybody in Kuwait MUST have a stamp - or your just a nobody). This one says, "FUCK OFF" (I didn't just type that to be rude, that's really what the stamp says). So, my last week here, that's how I'm stamping everything. (Is that wrong?)
I have done several things since I got fired which have made me really proud (this is in contrast to that last paragraph). I amped up the "helping people" portion of my show and I feel really good about it. Pay it forward. Youse guys: thank you for letting me into your worlds. Helping you is a blessing to me. (What can I say? I'm an ENFJ personality.)
I love you readers. You have made me really happy latey and I thank you all for it. Lots of virtual kisses on your heads (that's an Arab thing - it means like real gratitude and blessings at the same time).
DG- thanks for the update.When I was laidoff last December I too messed with HR. It was fun and made me feel much better.
ReplyDeleteI pray your job search is going better than mine.
thank you, Desert Girl. I've only been here two months, but started reading your blog a few months before I came. It has been entertaining, instructional, and very helpful and insightful.
ReplyDeleteLike many, I have felt a connection to you that is a testament to who YOU are. Be proud of that. Own it. I hope you find peace wherever you decide to go. If you decide to stay, I'd love to have coffee and sushi with you sometime.
Best,
Michele
Extraverted Intuitive Feeling Judging - learnt a new abbreviation :P
ReplyDeletePS im a blusher, and its cruel what u do :P we cant help it!
its a two way door, thank you for all those years of lettin us into your life, even if we were spectators and not commentators, it was always a pleasure.
Good luck with whatever you decide. I'm here in Pensacola counting the days until I return to Kuwait God willing by summer. I hope it all works out for you. Trust me I know how you feel. :)
ReplyDeleteYou go girl!
ReplyDeletejust stay brave! and i love how you're dealing with the situation, i would never have the guts for doing all that myself but nonetheless i admire you for the chin up attitude :)
it's all about how u dealt with it in the end anyways, and how much fun u had doing it :)
all the best,
s.
Enjoy your blog - thanks for sharing!Trust in God to lead you on this journey - He doesn't need tarot cards to help you ;)Don't slam the back door behind you -leave work with your head held high. You never know when someone from your past may play a part in your future.You gonna do just fine!
ReplyDeleteGood luck on everything, maybe this is the chance you always needed to really move to a better job or place in life.
ReplyDeleteI just came back from the states and asked myself why I’m still here in Kuwait (o yeah the money), and it seems like once you get here and have been here for awhile, you are stuck never ending repeating cycle, and you forget about the rest of the world and the opportunities out there, I really think you will be fine once you leave here. Have fun go live in Australia :))
Don't go!
ReplyDeleteGod made me write this - therefore it's a sign from him ;)
Luff you
Bo Hamoud wrote: "hi desert girl how are ya i would like to invite you to check out our pro kart circut and have a trail drive for free , u can text or call me on best regards www.prokartkw.com" You know what - I think that driving a go-cart just may be the solution to all my problems - especially if they'll let me crash one (or 12). I'm going to call you, dude! Thanks.
ReplyDeleteHave you thought about going to Qatar to look for a job? Trust me I know NOTHING about it except my husband is telling me to tell you to go there AND the principle of my kids school just moved there since he got a great job offer from a school there. I'm talking airline tickets for all his kids, free tuition, free villa etc. Gail
ReplyDeleteHey DG,
ReplyDeleteSorry I've been out of circulation lately. Been meaning to call or write for ages now. I'm glad you're taking this the way you are. I suppose it is a reason to freak out, especially if you've been calling this place home for more than a decade. But like Dave says, you get sucked into living here despite all its shortcomings. The bigger apartments, the bigger cars (I guess you've got those in the US), the fact that we can afford maids and nannies, that fact that we don't need to file for taxes blah blah blah...the list goes on.
I think what it all comes down to is; DO you want to pay taxes but live in an equal opportunity world, DO you want to be treated fairly at work, DO you want to be able to take a walk or read a book in the park without people staring and finally, DO you want to taste real wine! ;-)
Either way, I think we all have a purpose in life and you will continue serving yours. Good luck with whatever you decide and wherever you end up going.
Hey, don't worry! With personality and skills like yourself-- you will not have problems finding your next job whether you decide to stay here in Kuwait or elsewhere!
ReplyDeleteJust a temporary "glitch" which will lead to new adventures and experiences.
Life is a long journey and each moment is a learning experience that you will take with you to become always a better person!
I wish you the best and don't stop blogging!!!!
hey dg
ReplyDeletei have been reading your blog off and on for the past 3 yrs , its a good insight into the culture here and the pathetic situation of a young(er) adult in a city that never matures but definitly grows on you. i was born and raised in kuwait and have traveled all over the world, but somehow always end up here, due to family i guess..
i hope u can be around your family now, even though it will feel strange it may be a welcome change especially since it seems like kuwait only has so much to offer anyone and once u run on that wheel a couple of time u know what to expect and it just never changes, hope the best for u in every way in love and a new and exciting life/career.....
we will miss your wild blog if u leave :)
hilary
Hey DG..been a reader of your's quite for sometime now. Hope that your moving (IF you do so) will not be a reason to bury your blog and don't write an epitaph.
ReplyDeleteLike Obama says " It's time for a change" ..
Guess you could always write from wherever you are, right? Keep connected to Al Kuwait and us. Don't mean to sound insensitive and all.
Godspeed and no doubt,a nice human being as yourself will always have goodness following you. Cheers!!--J